Thursday, May 21, 2009

Cloth diapering

Well, we are full swing into cloth diapering and loving it!. My newest favorite diapers are Gro-Baby. They fit well, and are easy to adjust for different babies. I have 6 shells and 10 soaker pads, with 4 more soaker pads on the way. However, they also work really well with a trifolded prefold just laid in the soaker. They're a bit tricky for a newborn at first since you have to sort of ""scrunch"" the soaker down into the diaper, but after putting the diaper on once or twice, it was not an issue. I will say that even with a breastfed baby that that contain poo really well on the soaker pads. I've only had poo on the shells 3 times, and those were with hugely explosive poos, but even then, they were still contained WITHIN the shell, and no blowouts. :) I only have 6 shells and I find that to be more than enough, and could even make my whole stash thee diapers using 6 shells. I think 12 shells like they suggest would be overkill. They are aplix, and some people don't like that. I love the aplix they use and don't have issues with ""diaper chains"" in the wash, but i know others have. they are coming out with a snap version in june, and will be coming out with more colors and prints in the late fall.

So some Pros: Fit most babies shapes really well. Shells are reusable until they are soiled so it reduces laundry, and eventually is more cost effective since you need more soakers, but less shells. It is a trim fitting diaper, and since it's an All in 2, makes a great diaper bag diaper since it can be dependable, and there's less bulk to carry. It's organic cotton, so natural fibers against baby's bottom.

Cons: They do leave red marks on baby's legs/back. They're not terrible though, no mre than a pair of socks would leave on baby but i know this bothers some people. They stain more easily than other fabrics, but I think that's just the nature of the beast. They are a bit pricey to invest in initially.

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Sunday, April 05, 2009

Welcome to the world Ender Logan!

After finding out we were expecting again we began to seek out a midwife for a homebirth. We had experienced three traumatizing hospital births and felt that there had to be a better way. We emailed a few midwives, but in our hearts we truly felt we had already decided on which one to hire. She was kind and compassionate and offered reassurance during our most recent miscarriage and was also the first to respond to our email about seeking a midwife for our pregnancy. We set up a date for a consultation and had decided that if Sean and I both felt comfortable with her and decided that we would hire her on the spot, and we did. She had such an amazing calmness about her, which I knew would be a great balance with myself, as I tend to be a bit of the anxious type.

The pregnancy was fairly uneventful until the last trimester. I had some preterm labor, some elevated blood pressures, and some bed rest. I had a high leak at 36 weeks which re-sealed itself. I had also been 4cm dilated since 36 weeks. At our 39 week appointment I asked Coley to check my cervix and to possibly do a membrane sweep. What I really wanted was to have my water broken so we could get the show on the road. I felt like once my water broke, that everything would just go smoothly, and quickly. By this time Sean and I were both very ready and eager to meet our baby and were beginning to have concerns that if I went into labor while Sean was at work, that he might not make it home. Coley checked my cervix and said I was 5cm. and could stretch to 6 and that the baby had come down quite a bit. She offered to break my water. We were both nervous and excited.

Coley went out to her car to get her supplies, and to call her apprentice (who we later found out was in mammoth and wouldn’t make it). We scrambled to make up our bed with plastic, get the birth pool blown up, and let the kids know that the baby was coming. Coley came back in and broke my water around 3:30. We sat around and talked, and waited for contractions. I had a few piddly ones here and there, but nothing really worth noting or noticing. Around 5:30 we decided to take a walk to the park down the street. The kids wanted to get out, and we wanted to get labor going. By the time we made it to the park my contractions began. I went down the slide once with our youngest, Emma, and a very strong contraction hit me. I knew that it was time to get back to the house. Coley and I walked back to the house, while Sean followed in the car a few minutes later. We got back to the house around 6 and my contractions felt like they were coming fast and furious, about every 2 minutes. I had to really concentrate through them, and they were painful. Sean got home and I had him immediately fill the birth pool and I got in around 6:30 or so. Sean came and went as he continued to get things ready, or bring me water, take pictures, etc. I truly felt like I needed to be alone (meaning not watched but wanted them nearby). Both Sean and Coley were very respectful of this. I remember watching Coley’s reflection in the glass of the shower, as she watched mine as well from our bed in the other room.

It was such a strange feeling at this point. The pain was overwhelming, yet manageable. The peaks of the contractions would leave me feeling like I wanted to try to crawl out of my skin, in fact, I’m fairly sure I was trying as I arched my back out of the water. Looking back at the birth video I labored quietly in the pool, only breathing heavily through contractions and resting in between. Inside, I felt a bit out of control, I had an internal dialogue with myself about going to the hospital for an epidural, but it’s not something I truly wanted or would have done. I had a lot of pressure in my pubic bone and was shaking during contractions. I knew I was in transition, but I never made the connection that soon the hard work would be over and our baby would be here.

I began pushing gently a bit in the tub. Coley must have noticed since she asked me to try and get out and go to the bathroom so I wouldn’t have a full bladder while pushing. Once I got on the toilet, I didn’t want to get off. I was pushing with each contraction, but trying not to let anybody notice. I didn’t want to deliver there but felt like I couldn’t move. Coley never said it, but I could tell by looking at her that she really didn’t want me delivering on the toilet either. She offered the birth stool. I tried it for a split second. I was still only giving gentle pushes. I was afraid it was too soon to be pushing and didn’t want to swell my cervix. Coley checked me and said there was just a lip left of my cervix and said I could push. I let my guard down then and made my way back to the pool. I began pushing earnestly with each contraction. At this point I began asking how much longer, and almost pleading how much longer. It felt like it was still forever away. Coley smiled, and nodded, and just kept saying “You’re doing great. He’s moving down”. At some point I reached down and felt inside and could feel that he was almost there. This gave me just the encouragement I needed to keep going. As he was crowning, I worked hard to stay in control and try not to push too hard. Coley supported my perineum while I supported my labia. I really did not want to tear. Once his head was out I had a bit of a break. His head was out for about 2 minutes when Coley asked if I was having a contraction. I wasn’t having one, but I could tell that it was time for him to come out. I gave another eager push and out he came. I was a bit in shock. Coley told me to grab my baby and I did. Just 4 ½ hours after my water breaking, and 2 hours after contractions really began Ender Logan was born March 28th, 2009 at 7:52 p.m.

I was so overwhelmed with emotion. I couldn’t believe that he was here, that I had done it, and just how quick and smooth it all went. He surprised us all by how much vernix he had. He came out sleeping but was nice and pink, with apgars of 10 and 10. The kids all came into the room to meet him. After a few minutes, the kids left the room while I delivered the placenta. I handed the baby to Sean along with his placenta since it was still attached. Sean was surprised by just how heavy the placenta was. Coley helped me get out of the tub and into the bed. She checked me out and said I had just a tiny superficial tear not worth suturing. I felt great. I was a little shaky, a little in shock, but felt wonderful. The kids crawled up in the bed again as Ender nursed. When he was done nursing Coley checked him out and gave him a clean bill of health. We weighed and measured him, and he weighed in at 7lbs. 13 oz. and 21 inches long. He was perfect.

While my birth was nothing like I envisioned it would be (going into labor at night, candlelight, kids not home, easing into labor gently and building up, music playing, etc.) it was the most amazing experience of my life and the perfect birth for our family. I couldn’t have done it without my husband, Sean, who lovingly supported me every step of the way during the pregnancy and continued on during the birth. He never showed feared, and stepped in when I needed him, and backed off when I didn’t. Or, without my midwife, Coley, who became a friend, and reassured me when things weren’t quite right, and gave me the confidence I needed to ensure a safe delivery at home. We are forever grateful for the presence you brought to our birth and for helping us along through this journey. Thank you.

Ender Logan Stanford
March 28, 2009 7:52 p.m.
7lbs. 13 oz. 21 inches

Sunday, January 25, 2009

30 weeks: In the home stretch

I'm 30 weeks now. What I consider the "homestretch".My appointments shift from once a month, to every 2 weeks. Midwife appointments shift from basic prenatal checks to going over my birth plan, discussing any fears, ironing out the birth deals, going over any testing we'd like to have or decline, and discussing whether we'd like the standard "protocol" for baby when he's born. Wow! It feels like just yesterday I was lining up the handfuls of pregnancy tests on the counter in amazement.

Anyways, yet another good midwife appointment. I'm up 2 pounds in 2 weeks. n which my midwife joyfully exclaimed "YES! Finally!" Which put me at 4 1/2 lbs. under pre-pregnancy weight still, but about 4 lbs. up from when I first started seeing my midwife. I'm sure I'll really start packing on the pounds these last few weeks as my body prepares for birth and as baby Dino begins to pack on his chunk.

There was slight protein in my urine, which has been an issue on and off his pregnancy, but not major and probably most likely due to whatever I had eaten/not eaten prior. My bloodwork came back. My hemoglobin is just fine. slightly lower compared to some, but perfectly fine for a pregnant woman 30 weeks pregnant, so YAY!

We discussed the GD test for diabeties, circumcision, vitamin k injection for baby, and the eye ointment for baby as well. I've decided to bypass the GD testing. My diet is goo and I'm testing my glucose levels at home periodically and am always right on target. As for circumcision, wow, what a hot topic, huh? My oldest is not circumcised. I believe it's not necessary and is a cosmetic procedure and that it's best left to be. Hubby, on the other hand feels very strongly that this baby should be circumcised. So, we're at a crossroad, and have something to hash out a bit before the birth. Because we have not completely decided about circumcision we've decided to go ahead and give the baby the vitamin k shot at birth, to help with blood clotting. I have however declined the eye goop , since it's to protect against std's as the baby travels the birth canal, which I am confident that I do not have, and that my husband has not given me. So, that's that for now. I'm sure we'll discuss the GBS (group beta strep) more in depth at my next appointment. I am torn on whether to even do the testing or not. It's a bigger test to me, so I'm trying to weigh each side carefully.

As for Baby, he's doing amazingly well. She got the last ultrasound report. My cervix is measuring right on track and behaving itself. Baby measured RIGHT on track as well. Placenta is high and posterior. cord insertion looked good. And I won't be going back to the perinatologist for the remainder of the pregnancy unless I manage to go past 41-42 weeks.

Baby's heartrate sounded good and strong yesterday. My midwife palpated a bit and determined baby to be head down, body on left side, and LOA (left occiput anterior) which is the prime position for giving birth. Hopefully he stays put. He's still rather high, but I'm not expecting him to drop a ton before labor. For now he resides just under my ribs to remind mommy that he's there, in a not so comfortable way.

Since I don't think I've posted many (if any) belly pictures this pregnancy, here's my 30 week picture. Yes, I'm huge.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

27.5 weeks

Wow, it's been a long road but we have officially passed our first "big" milestone this pregnancy. There has been some (not so hidden) anxiety leading up to 27 weeks 2 days. If you've followed this blog for long then you'll know that it was at this gestation that our Preemie Princess Emma Grace was born. All 2lbs. 2oz. of her that struggled to live in those early weeks. We have prayed for a healthy pregnancy, and for a full-term baby, and have taken this pregnancy day by day. What a joy to make it past 27 weeks.

We had yet another good, boring, midwife appt. last saturday. I have been super duper tired and apparently pale lookingm, so she's ordered some lab work to check for anemia. Not a huge deal, but something which we'd rather treat sooner rather than later. Baby Dino's heartbeat was on the slower side at 128 bpm, but that's probably because he was resting. He appears to be back head down, yay! Everything else looked good. My next midwife appt. will be in 3 weeks when I hit 30 weeks. From there we go to every 2 weeks. Yikes! It's beginning to feel like crunch time.

I have another ultrasound appt. and ultrasound cervical check tomorrow. I'm sure everything will be just fine. I'll also get to see this little guy again. I'm curious to know what their estimated weight it for him, since he feels on the bigger side and we can compare to what Emma actually was when she was born. I know there is always some inaccuracy either way with weights, but it's still fun to speculate.

Here's a picture from our last ultrasound. Hopefully, I'll have another to post tomorrow.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Another good midwife appointment.

Well, I'm 23 weeks today, and had another good midwife appoint. C (my midwife) brought S (her apprentice) with her today. She was just as lovely as my midwife. We had alot of fun and alot of good laughs. My weight is up by 1.5 lbs. (total for the pregnancy), No protein/ketones in my urine. Baby's heartbeat was great. I'm measuring somewhere between 25-26cm. So once again measuring slightly large for dates, but that's not unusual for having several kids. Not to mention I think he's going to be my biggest baby so far. Which is funny, since when C was palpating my uterus she asked "we DID confirm there is only one right". He's mighty big! To me, he feels almost as big as Emma was when she was born at 27 weeks. So who knows. I'm fully expecting an 8 1/2-9 lb. baby or more. I just hope he fits his clothes and cute cloth diapers.

Other than that. We scheduled our last "4 week" visit for January 3, 2009. From there I will have one "3 week" visit which will take me to 30 weeks, and then I believe from there on out I'll have visits every 2 weeks until 36 or 38 weeks at which point I'll go to weekly visits until I deliver. WOW, putting it like that makes it feel not so far away. That's only about 8 visits left! For some reason I feel like I won't make it to April though, and March 28th, feels closer to when I'll deliver. But, we'll see what God (and the baby) have in store for us. It's becoming much more real and exciting now.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

19 weeks 4 days

I had an ultrasound today to check my cervix length again. Last time is was 3.28 which is on the lower side of normal. Today...we couldn't see it. So, I go back on Monday for another quick scan with a full bladder to check the length. Baby Dino is right on track once again, and looks good. He was head down and facing my placenta. (Just how I want him positioned for birth, but I'm sure he'll move around quite a bit before then). He had his face up by his head and looked like he was waving at one point. Until Monday, here's a quick peek at him.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Baby Dinos Heartbeat

We rented a doppler again for this baby for reassurance. Baby Dino was very active and hard to track down, but slowed down enough for us to catch a bit of his heartbeat. It's such a sweet sound. I don't think I could ever get tired of hearing it!